bless me. for i have sinned.

this is my last confession

i don't expect you to vindicate me

to abjure or avenge me

frankly i don't even expect you to care

but this is my final claim

and so i will take this time

as your last gift to me

the last attempt at settling debts

i will hold these moments as collateral

and count you complete

sit and let me tell you of my sins

my stains on my soul

and the places i abandoned being whole

for being who 

you wanted me to be

and i will stand alone 

on this side of the screen

you father confessor don't have to see

the burden of guilt settle at your feet

i don't love you enough to leave you with that

or maybe too much to dare

and so dear 

before i go

let me tell you this

in one blow

my crucifixion and my saving grace

i love you

with all that i am