doctors visit

i write

innoculations i

constant reports of heartbreaks

in the melded language

of artist with inkstains

and a officer who's seen it all before

bitter and jaded

and still looking for 

that perfect angle

the way to capture this moment

in the lighting 

the consonants 

the jagged edges of letters

and i take these down

swallowing the pills and panic

the pathos and pain

line by line

step by step

thinking that in a year's time or two

i can take on the disease

in its rampant form

watch it roiling across my skin

through my veins

erupting within my cardiac muscles

and tearing my mind to shreds

and laugh

because ive seen it all. written it all.

down before

down and out.

and i can throw this out

throw it off

stand up and fight these broken hearts

because i've taken my shots

my pills and my potions

and i can beat these wrenching emotions.

if only i could combat

falling in love