to the one i would have loved.

i found you in a flower

today

it was red and gold

explosively lovely

growing in my path

as if it belonged there

i stood there

caught

as if my eyes were 

weighing down my feet

while i drunk in the colours

and knelt suddenly

in the dirt

that was clumped and moist

clinging to me

in small black threads

as if to tie me to itself

and the flower grew more gorgeous yet

with small white lines

that raced from the deep golden center

to splay at the tips

like a ray of light

that frays as it begins to touch eternity

and that golden center

so closely hidden

by the outer abundance 

of colour and flair

fluctuated gently in the wind

so gently

it looked like a heart beating

i reached out my hand

to touch

or pluck

i knew not which

and could do neither

with the heaviness of beauty upon me

so knelt frozen for a while

along the path

till with a wrench i understood

stroked a fingertip along the petals

sacred soft

and stood

loath to leave but knowing

that these deep dirt stains

and this stained glass image

is all that i may take with me

i stepped of the pat

finding another and following it

till the redgold sunset haunted me

and i slept

dreaming of you

and saying goodbye

without you knowing 

what you had told me

i found you today

in a flower

and left you to bloom

for the one you belong to